allexis' diary

the story of the girl...

2010-06-24T11:11:00.000+08:00

the girl who always looks sad but claims she’s fine.
the girl who puts sad away messages up everyday.
the girl who when she sees you, smiles a half a smile.
the girl who always has time to listen to you vent and is willing to give her opinion to help you in anyway that she can.
the girl who cares about helping everyone but herself.
the girl who cries every night before she goes to sleep.
the girl who pretends that she’s okay while she's dying inside.
the girl who says she’s happy for you when you get a new girlfriend while jealousy is raging inside her.
the girl who hugs you when you’re down but secretly wishes she could hug you forever.
the girl who tries to look beautiful even though she knows she’s not.
the girl who says that she’ll always be there for you & means it.
that’s me that is the story of my life...

source: http://xxdailydreamxx.tripod.com/id15.html

one yr after..

2010-03-22T00:18:00.003+08:00

it has been almost one yr since i've updated my blog.. now currently studying in ums,taking food science and nutrition, 2nd sem. waiting for my 2 months semester break. will hav finals in less than a mth, but haven't even started doing revisions.

busy with diff uni programmes.. driving me nuts sometimes, when having too much stuff to do.. there was once, last wed, when i was supposed to be at 3 meetings at 7.30pm.. the story.. went to reading room at kpgE for journal assignment meeting. then saw biochem gp members thr too, biochem assignment discussion was also there.. then after a while food bites ssmp friends were there for meeting too.. huh..

most of my friends are on facebook.. few used to have blogger acc but i doubt that thy're still blogging. everyone seems to be 'facebook-ing' nowadays.. n i've lost my friends' blogger links when my blog was 'reconstructed'..

same as always, feel free to drop comments..

Miri International Jazz Festival 09!!

2009-05-07T17:56:00.002+08:00

YEAH!! Happy cuz I'm goin to MIJF this yr.. So this'll b the 3rd yr I'm goin.. Some may ask, what's so interesting bout it? Well, it's da music and atmosphere that's.. It's hard to describe. To me, it's relaxing, fun, and enjoyable. The performers:

Fri, 08/05/09
1. Double Take (Malaysia)
2. Bombay Baja Brass Band (UK)
3. John Kaizan Neptune's Steps in Time (Japan)
4. Alamonde (Australia)

Sat, 09/05/09
1. Dites 34 (France)
2. Jeff Maluleke (South Africa)
3. Rumba Caldaza (Canada)
4. Thomson Big Band (Singapore)

This is what I've got for those who wants to know.. This is the info fr the brochure.. Can't wait!!

Another Cinderella Story- A Must Watch.. LOL

2009-05-05T21:55:00.004+08:00

Great movie.. It's jz another version of Cinderella. The only difference is thr's a lot of dancing in this movie, which I ♥ very much.. So the Cinderella in this movie is Mary Santiago (Selena Gomez) and the Charming Prince is Joey Parker (Drew Seeley). The evil stepmother is Dominique Blatt- a singer- and her two daughters are Britt and Bree.. Mary's mom was actually Dominique's back up dancer and 'took' Mary in when her mom died. That's how Mary became her 'stepdaughter', which in this movie is becoming her servant/ slave.

I'm jz gonna add my fave scenes from the movie (which I got fr Youtube), cuz I thr's no point for me to go blogging bout the synopsis. Below is the link..
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1071358/synopsis

This scene is where Mary sneaks into a dance sch to learn dancing secretly..

This is my favourite.. The tango, at the Black and White Ball. The song is called 'Valentine's Dance Tango' by The Twins.

~

2009-03-09T17:03:00.003+08:00

AGHHHH!!! STPM results will b out tomoro.. Found out 3 days ago n now I feel.. Very scared, nervous, my heart is racing like it won't go back to normal rate.. Feel so weak.. N it's not that I haven't eaten for days.. Freakin out here..

New project.. Weaving..

2008-12-11T21:01:00.003+08:00

The manual..

The colourful yarns..

The very big needle. lol..

The weaving loom..

My first half-finished weaving project.. hee!

my life before holidays.. lol.

2008-12-11T20:48:00.005+08:00

The shelves where I spent most of my evenings.. At pustaka..

View from my usual carrel..

Messy.. Guess wad book is tat?

The part of City Fan that I always see from my usual carrel..

Nice weather.. lols

CNY deco in my classroom..

Noticeboard..

That's wad my classroom looks like.. Boring.. LOL.

......

2008-12-04T16:54:00.001+08:00

I've jz finished my big exam.. I thought I would be happy, but then, I feel numb.. During exam period, I was thinking al the things I want to do.. But my mind is now blank.. I don't know what I wanna do..

Déjà vu? LOL..

2008-11-27T21:12:00.007+08:00

New school semester..

At the 1st week,

2nd week,

Before mid- term exams,

During mid- term exams,

Aft mid- term exams,

Before final exams,

Once received final exams schedule,

7 days before final exam,

6 days before final exams,

5 days before final exams,

4 days left,

3 days,

2 days,

1 day before final exams,

The night before final exams,

1 hr before finals,

During finals,

walking out fr exam hall,

During holidays, aft final exams,

--- Had some prob when tried to upload animated GIF.. Here's a link to those who needs help with animated GIF. http://blogger-tricks.blogspot.com/search/label/animated%20images
It helped a lot..
This was taken fr an email which i thought was vey interesting as I could relate to it.. And da rabbit (is it a rabbit?) was so cute.. LOL.

broken

2008-11-27T20:32:00.006+08:00

it came to a bitter ending,
though i jz wanted an explanation,
all i got was hurtful stuff thrown at me,
thigs tat were jz assumptions.

i was the best fren to someone
who thought i hated her,
i was asking myself,
y was i called a best fren,
when we shared nth?
experiences,
sadness,
happiness..
all because i was assumed
to hate her.

all excuses,
said, i would say whatever
when if u came to me,
i would've given all my attention,
to help and comfort.

one thing tat i want to say,
n let u know
does any of u know me,
besides my name and favourite colour?
u said i hurt ppl's feelings?
does any of you,
in this circle of so- called best frens,
think that u are a better fren to me,
compared to how i've been a fren to you?
if you think u do,
then i wanna say sorry..

if u did accept me s best fren,
u would've accpted all of my weaknesses,
including how impatient i am,
my quick temper,
my everything..
did u do it?
ask yourself.
i can ans tat ques for u..
u never did, did u?
if u had,
all those hurtful words
would have never came out.

las thing tat i wanna say..
u have shown me ur true self,
n i will never ever
regret the day
that i said
i never wanna hav
anything to do with u..

If I Were A Boy- Beyonce

2008-11-08T22:38:00.000+08:00

templates..

2008-10-18T00:21:00.004+08:00

nex project for holiday: learn to make my own template.. lol! cuz i can't find anything tat i like.. haih! realised that it takes a lot of time and effort to create a blog template/ skin.. n the most impoertant thing is to learn HTML.. no idea what that is.. n CSS? haih.. need time.. so.. i'm so gonna learn all that aft my exam..so that is da template tat i luv so much but couldn't use!!! ahhhhh!!!

blog currently under construction... :'(

2008-10-17T23:50:00.002+08:00

haih~ i still dun get what i did wrong.. till i couldn't arrange anything in my sidebar & add widgets.. all i could do was to add new posts! & you can see that... my page became plain and.. less pinky. lol! so now i hav to start re- decorating my page.. now searching for the perfect template (kinda hard).. lol! i shud be studyin! haih~ miss my old blog.. it's won't be da same anymore... :'(

Truth About Girls

2008-10-11T19:17:00.009+08:00

I jz received this email titled 'truth about girls'.. Here is what it says..

"When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running in her mind. When a girl is not arguing, she is thinking deeply. When she looks at you with eyes full of questions.. she is wondering how long you'll be around. When a girl ans 'i'm fine' after a few seconds, she is not at all fine. When she stares at you, she's wondering why you're lying. When she lays her head on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever. When she wants to see you everyday, she wants to be pampered. When she says ' I ♥ you', she means it. When she says 'I miss you', no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life comes around once so jz make sure you spend it with the right person.

Find a guy.. Who calls you beautiful instead of hot, calls you back when you hang up, stays awake jz to watch you sleep, kisses your forehead, wants to show you off to the world even when you are in your sweats, hold your hand in front of his friends, reminds you constantly of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you, turns to his friends and says 'it's her!'... "

It's was the guy part that I'm filled with doubts. Is thr any guy like that left in this world? Haha! Seriously.. Every relationship starts with lovey-dovey couple who seem to be together 24/7.. aft some time, comes the small fight, then big fight.. Average 2 yrs of relationship then break off.. Are thr any couples who treat each other like the first few dates after half a yr? I find it quite rare..

Finally! Starbucks in Miri...

2008-09-30T22:48:00.008+08:00

Lol! Just came back from Starbucks.. These are da pics.. But the quality is not too good, i mean da pics.. Used my phone's cam.. :'( Hehe.. Okkaaayyy.. So those 8 KL or somewhere will be like, "What?! Jz a Starbucks, why get so excited?" Haha.. Cuz I din get to go to Starbucks when I was in KL, Genting & Bali.. Lol. N this is a small town.. So.. The view fr my seat..
Cakes!!! Din try it though, but it looks okay...
Posters.. (-_-) Hehe.
& c'est moi ( this is me).. haha..

The counter area..

My drink.. Mocha frappuccino.. ( Frappuccino means ice blended.. Hee! ). N if you bring a mug or tumbler, u can get RM1 discount fr da drinks.. *Saw it on da receipt aft i purchased my drink*
Sugar? Vanilla? Cinnamon? Get it here.. XD! N tat is definitely not my hand.. Lol!

So.. Tat's bout it.. I ♥ da environment thr.. Almost everything! Hehe.. New mug n tumbler.. Yay! LOL!

Cross Stitch..

2008-09-27T22:04:00.005+08:00

Stpm is so near!! Hope I hav enough time to revise, but I can't wait for it to be over.. Cause then I have a verrryyyy long holiday, Yay! and I can do the things I enjoy.. Stitchin, watchin movies, surf net all day long, day long naps.. haha! N stitch! These are some of the cross stitching I've done last holidays for Christmas.. And some others..

This is supposed to be a garden.. Haven't finish this piece, hope to have it done by next jan.. lol.
This is a love thingy that i wanted to give to my mum.. I never got to fin it.. Because i misplaced it.. Furious wid myself.. Haha!

This little fairy i made for a friend..

Snowglobes!!

2008-09-27T21:49:00.003+08:00

Wanna make a collection of snowglobes.. But it's kinda limited to get snowglobes here in Miri.. :'(

I hav 3 so far.. I want more! Lol..

Takowaki

2008-09-27T21:41:00.002+08:00

One of my fave food.. I don't think thy sell it here in Miri.. Thr was, bout 4 yrs back? I 4got.. But I can get it in Sibu, BUT i only go back to my hometown bout 5 times a yr.. :'(

My bday!!

2008-09-27T20:26:00.008+08:00

Had a very very nice day.. Surprise at sch. Big Oreo Cheesecake- no pic cuz cam is not allowed 8 sch :'(.. tee hee! My presents..

Fr joey.. Nice earrings! Shells n red flower..

Fr 4 best friends.. Green..

My fav gift? Fr my dear mum.. A skirt n blouse! Yay..

Then, dinner at... hee! Gr8 place..

To top it off.. Choc!! My fave!!!!!!!! Lol...

Hehe.. Tat's quite it.. LOL!
XD

Love Story_ Taylor Swift

2008-09-27T20:19:00.002+08:00

I jz love the dress! Hee.. Love everything bout da song+ da video.. XD

David Sides- Mozart Gone Hip-Hop, Pop and R&B

2008-08-23T18:55:00.007+08:00

so... this is david sides.. great piano player. wish that i could play piano like him. lol. he make it looks so easy.. XD! & his songs are so beautiful.. came across him when i was browsing youtube for new songs.. lol. it's just so... *speechless* haha! wish i can get his new album..

another fav scripture

2008-08-04T21:56:00.003+08:00

Romans 12:17

If someone has done you wrong,
do not repay him with a wrong.
Try to do what everyone considers to be good.
Do everything possible on your part
to live in peace with everybody.
Never take revenge,
but instead let God's anger do it.

21 Do not let evil defeat you;
instead conquer evil with good.

love

2008-08-04T21:14:00.013+08:00

my fave verse in bible..

Corinthians 1:13:4-7
Love is patient and kind;
it is not jealous or conceited or proud;
love is not ill- mannered or selfish or irritable;
love does not keep a record of wrongs;
love is not happy with evil,
but is happy with the truth.
Love never gives up;
and its faith, hope and patience
never fail.

secret recipe coming to town..

2008-07-23T21:04:00.002+08:00

opening soon... yay.. delicious cakes.. can't wait! ...................................

robotic life...

2008-07-23T19:27:00.002+08:00

wake up at 6 am, prepare 4 sch, arrive sch, hav lessons, go home, hav lunch, bath, do homework, sleep, eat dinner, study, sleep... wake up the nex day, same thing all over again...

haih..

Friday the 13th

2008-06-13T22:30:00.006+08:00

i didn't realise that it is friday the 13th today until i heard it on the radio.. some people believe that friday the 13th is an unlucky day. i don't know if this is true... anyway, i can't say that it has been a very unlucky day today for me.

i finished my 1st term exams today, um, actually i still have an objective bio paper on next mon. lol. today's paper was maths, which was a paper that i never have enough time to finish solving all the question. truth is, i'm a bit slow with maths, or that i don't quite like maths. after maths, i had bio paper 2, in which the questions were quite easy but i couldn't answer almost half of it because i forgot everything i read.

i'm still left with a bio paper because i took an extra subject. all of my classmates have just 4 sujects but i have 5, cause i took both bio and physics. the reason to make such a stupid and crazy decision and suffering for it now was because i couldn't make up my mind whether to take bio or phy. :''( i didn't feel so bad about it till a few months ago when i realised that i forget stuff easily. like if i finished revising a chapter today i'll forget all about it after two days. it's like having amnesia. god..

however, today wasn't such a bad day.. my mom took me to DeliFrance, which was opened already, and i just ♥ it thr! then she bought two blouses for me.. shopping, esp for clothes, always lifts my mood. XD.. eating and sleeping too is what i do when i feel down, and i have no idea why i'm not putting on weight at all.. :( lol. all people ask me are whether i eat or not and why i am so thin. if i know the answer then i wouldn't be so so thin... duh.

happy father's day...♥♥

2008-06-13T21:28:00.005+08:00

how time flies... it seem like yesterday was mother's day. this sunday is fathers' day, and i have no idea what to get for my dad.. a tie? a shirt? ahhh!!!

actually i wanna write bout how important my dad is to me, how much i love him and grateful for what he and my mom has done for me.. i really love both of them so so much, i can't imagine going away for my studies. then suddenly i got stuck when i was starting to write, cause the whole idea seem silly. but i'm gonna go with it anyway..

my dad is always there for me and my brother.. he took me to my first organ lesson when i was six, accompanied me to every single class until i forgot when. he taught my brother and i how to swim, and i love swimming. my brother and i went training every single day, but i stopped when i was in form 2.. he was also the one who insisted that i get braces, for the sake for my dental health. i didn't want it at first, but finally gave in. and i don't regret it. he took me to driving lessons, waiting patiently and when i took my driving test, which took about one whole day.

my parents always wants the best for us, no matter what it is. my dad sent us to swimming training so that we get to socialize, gave us the chance to learn music, brought us on vacation to experience new stuff.. some of the things that maybe they didn't get to enjoy when they were kids, and they don't want us to miss out anything. he rather spend the money on food, like bringing our family to eat and for the vacations rather than spend it on things that are, well, useless. haha.

all i wanna say is that, i am thankful and grateful all that he has done for me, and i love him very very much.. and i know i don't say this very often but I LOVE YOU, DAD!!! ♥

Qualities That My Life Partner Should Have

2008-02-29T21:26:00.006+08:00

Lol.. Actually, this is one of the topics for my MUET speaking lesson. My teacher thought it would be an interesting topic and that we could talk more about.. Here it goes.. Haha.

*****
First and foremost, he must be a guy that i can trust for trust is the fundamental (??.. lol) to a long and lasting relationship. A relationship without trust is like a piece of glass, fragile and can break easily due to even the smallest problems.

Second, we must have at least some common interest like music or movies. This way, we will not run out of things to talk about and can even go to concerts or music festivals together and enjoy being in each other's company. Furthermore, I hope that my life partner will enjoy travelling as much as I do because we can then both experience new things together.

Besides, he must have some sense of humour to fill our lives with fun and laughter or simply to just understand my jokes as I do not think that I would want to spend my life with someone who goes blank when I am joking.Moreover, I hope that he can cheer me up when I feel down.

He must be a supportive person so that I can have someone to turn to when I have a problem and stand by me in achieving in goals.

He has to be taller than me, but he does not have to look like Brad Pitt (lol.. this is just for, actually I also dunno.. jz added this when i was in a hurry to fin writing this) . It is because I believe that good looks is not everything for all we know, that beautiful or handsome person might have bad motives (no offense) or is a mean person underneath.

Last but not least, he must at least know how to cook simple dishes so that he can help me cook or simply just cook for himself when I am busy (haha, it's more to cuz i can't cook, now. but i'm still learnin).
*****

I think mine is sort of boring and predictable, unlike some of my classmates' piece.. I enjoyed listening to most of their short speeches..

my life so far...

2008-02-19T22:02:00.002+08:00

ok.. so i'm now in 2nd year of form 6, upper 6. well, next week is going to be exam week for first monthly exam. haih.. feeling so stressed right now, maybe it's because i'm not ready for it yet.. so stressed till i can't read, and i can't remember anything i'm suppposed to remember. HELP!!!

school is kinda boring.. can't seem to finish my homework, especially maths. is this college life? now i have writer's block, i don't think writing a blog is suitable for me.. hahah!!

my trip to Bali..

2007-12-05T23:40:00.002+08:00

This is a very popular tourist spot in Bali. It's called Tanah Lot and when I went there it was almost sunset. The scenery was, as you can see, breathtaking. Very tranquil.. There is a cave where the locals believe in drinking the holy water will give good health. The water is considered holy because it is fresh water when it should have been salty. The temple located on top of the cliff is strictly prohibited to public and only priests can enter it. So we could only take pictures from the hills.. This picture below was taken at Kuta. It is located near Kuta beach where most tourists surf. Most of the shops here sells swimming gears, bikinis (lol), surfing board, etc..
Okay.. So this is the 'nasi campur'.. It costs about RM 13..

Uh, this is called parasailing.. From above you get a bird's view of Tanjung Benoa beach.. It's very pretty and I love it. As scary as it may seem, I'd like to do it again in the future. ;P
This is the Tanjung Benoa beach. They have all kinds of water activities here. Banana boat, flying fish, scuba diving, water skiing...The beach is clean and nice.

irreplaceable

2007-12-05T01:06:00.000+08:00

Just want to tell you how much I miss you since you left, two years ago, without even saying goodbye. I did not even have enough time to get to know you better. I was shocked till no words or tears could come when I got the news, saying that you were gone, forever. I thought it was just a prank but it was for real and I sometimes still can't believe that you left. The following year, your seat was empty, but to me and our friends, our hearts felt emptier.

Before I got to know you, you seem to be like a quiet person. After some time, we had gotten close and all I can say is that you became like a big sister to me, always was there when I needed someone. I still remember, that you will start singing 'Belaian Jiwa' everytime I feel down, just to cheer me up. And remember Tata Young's 'Cinderella'? And 'A Thousand Miles'? I would really travel a thousand miles just to see you again..

Do we have a lot in common? Well, I know one thing that are different in us. I believe in fairytales and you don't. Haha. I knew it when you said you did not like the 'Ella Enchanted' book i lent to you. But we both like 'The Mediator' series, even though you only finished the first of the six books.

And together we dissected frogs and rats during the science fair. We were in the same group of three girls who did it. Girl power!! Haha.

All I want to say is I miss you a lot..

me...

2007-12-05T00:48:00.000+08:00

Okay... Um. About me. I like green colour. But ironically I choose pink for my template. This is my first blog.. I like to read books, listen to songs, and watch movies. I love travelling. I went to Bali earlier this year and it was awesome. Maybe it was because I went parasailing. It's kind of like parashoot, except that the parachute is pulled by a boat. Movies. My favourite movies are the sequels of Pirates of the Caribbean. I dislike movies with violence and greusome, and I'm terrified of ghost movies. Haha. In short, I like funny movies with happy ending. I have to admit, I still enjoy watching cartoons. Hehe..

I think that's all that I can say about myself for now..